Não importa o que digam os relógios ou as atitudes e os labores dos homens. De manhã é quando estou desperto e há uma alvorada em mim. A reforma moral é o esforço de se desenvencilhar do sono. Por que razão dão os homens um balanço tão pobre do seu dia, senão pelo facto de que estiveram atordoados pelo sono? Eles não são assim tão mal calculadores. Se não estivessem tomados pela sonolência, teriam realizado algo. Milhões estão suficientemente despertos para o trabalho físico; mas somente um em um milhão está suficientemente esperto para um trabalho intlectual efectivo, e só um em cem milhões para uma vida poética ou divina. Estar desperto é estar vivo. Nunca até hoje encontrei um homem suficientemente desperto. Como poderia eu olhá-lo de frente? [...] Afectar a qualidade do dia, eis a mais elevada das artes. Todo o homem recebe a tarefa de tornar a sua vida, até mesmo nos seus detalhes, digna de contemplação da sua hora mais crítica e elevada.

Henry Thoreau (1854)

Este humor líquido, que em tempos esteve entorpecido, revela-se agora sob o esboço de um sorriso. É, indubitavelmente, a antecipação de uma possibilidade, de uma ideia, e o conhecimento fragmentário de uma paixão. É um inefável fascínio - de ir... e de ser.

Empty

I'm beginning to know myself. I don't exist.
I'm the gap between what I'd like to be and what others have made me,
Or half of this gap, since there's also life...
That's me. Period.
Turn off the light, shut the door, and quit that slipper noise in the hallway.
Leave me alone in my room with the vast peace of myself.
It's a shoddy universe.

Álvaro de Campos

Dreams - what men are made of.

'I accept as truth that everything has its own time. This is the right moment for me to make this decision (...) This is a moment to make a pure choice and reject conformity. It’s a moment to fight against the anaesthetizing of the soul and to let myself be passionate about life.'

When I wrote this personal letter I was so hopeful, expectant about the future and aware of the hardships a new life brings on. I was not without fear and yet, I didn't allow the menace of my misgiving stop me from trying. I did try. However, what I had planned didn't turn out the way I expected... That fact devastated me and made me second guess myself because I used to think that if I didn't do it at that moment (when I had the will, the courage) I would probably miss my chance.

We have to realize that when we take the plunge, we always endanger something. I understand that by raising my expectations I took the risk of being dashed... Despite all the frustration and disappointment my decision brought on, I still believe it couldn't have been in any other way.

I believe we have to innovate ourselves and rediscover passion towards life, even if it means not to play safe.

"When a dream takes hold of you, what can you do? You can run with it, let it run your life, or let it go and think for the rest of your life about what might have been." - Patch Adams, M.D.

About that dream I fought for in the letter... maybe it just wasn't the right moment. Nevertheless, it will come.

'for even a heretic must believe in something, if nothing more than the truth of his own doubt'

Quoted from Barack Obama's biography - DREAMS FROM MY FATHER

Heterónimo

Caminha comigo - sob a promessa mútua de nunca sermos estranhas.




'What we had in common - our restlessness, our impassioned spirits, and a love for the open road.' Ernesto Guevara de la Serna